Chapter Twenty-nine Immediate Manifestation-The Opposite Of Hard

IMMEDIATE MANIFESTATION
THE OPPOSITE OF HARD

March 27, 2010, four and one half days to go before the official end of this Journal. To any and all of you who have read this and followed this journey with me including, specifically, my husband’s nephew who thinks this is a jumbled mess and that I am seriously in need of therapy, I thank you for your time, your energy and your attention. If I have helped you in any way or given you cause for thought (including the thought that I am misguided) then I have accomplished my secondary objective. My primary objective has been to understand, work through and transcend the concept that it has to be hard.

I’m sure it is not coincidental that on April 2 I will be starting a workshop, this time for women, to help them understand and resolve, easily and with love, any issues they are holding with respect to body image or the ability to love and appreciate their physical selves.

I realize that what I am about to say is a terrible generalization but it appears to me that men, at least the men I have known, revere hard work and believe that it is “good” to “work” hard. They seem to be more forgiving of themselves when it comes to “non-work”. Conversely, women, at least in my observation, seem to believe that they must work hard at everything or maybe they believe that everything has to be hard. I don’t know the answer but this set of observations raises the questions; do women feel less worthy of “ease” than men, do women on a subconscious level feel they have more for which they need to be forgiven than men; are women in this lifetime paying off some cosmic debt? Is it possible that one lesson all women have the opportunity to learn, now, is that it does not have to be hard and that in challenging the assumption that hard is good, anything they are carrying that is in the way of “easy” will come up for consideration and resolution?

I believe with all my heart that it does not have to be hard anymore. I know there are still lessons which, even if painful, do not have to be hard. Sitting here today though I also realize that to some extent I have been hedging my bets. There are a few things in my life that I want to manifest immediately and by that I mean by the official end of this Journal. I have hesitated to make a demand for them because I did not want to look foolish if they did not occur, because some part of me has remained afraid to believe that I can have all my desires satisfied; in short, trust.

So, it’s official. I trust, I believe, I have already been told that I look foolish so, what the heck! Here’s the official list of what I want or want more of by April 1, 2010:

Firm contract for the sale of Burnham Road property
Repayment of the loan to my friend
New and unsolicited callers to Pearls of Wisdom
A minimum of 5 clients per week
Official affiliation that is mutually profitable with my friend the pharmacist
Plans for the mother of all shopping trips!

I think that’s good for five days. I promised myself a lazy day and, notwithstanding that promise, I have, yet again, been working “hard” on enlightenment so I think that’s it for today.

From the atavistic desire to be in control within me to what I hope is no desire to be in control within you….

To be continued…